tammat sudah..!

hardbound thesis~  ^_^

satu ketika dulu....perkataan F.Y.P ni macam nightmare je nak dengar or sebut hari2...

datang campus pun sebulan awal takut x sempat siap projek.

start je FYP...terkial-kial tunggang terbalik lab nak siapkan kerja..

stress bila kena buat kerja kat lab sorang2..

Selama ni kalau time praktikal..x pernah nya nak gigih buat experiment..

Pantang banyak set experiment kena buat...mula la satu class bersatu padu tetiba..

Pakat2 bahagi semua experiment yg ada...sharing caring result pulak lepas tu…

gelap sungguh masa depan dapat bakal2 scientist yg AWESOME macam kami ni..!!haha

hari2,...macam2 benda baru belajar...
instruments canggih2 kat lab tu semua boleh hands on...
kalau dulu boleh tengok pegawai sains je la yg buat demo..

n now...all the hardships were finally ended..
its gonna be the great memories to be reminded of..
it's how i learned to be the best...to be stronger...
thankssssssssssss a lot kepada semua yg terlibat secara direct ataupun paksa rela sepanjang aku buat fyp ni.
n of course...my dear supervisor, Dr.T la yg paling penat layan student yg serba x tahu mcm aku ni.
sorry Dr...jasamu dikenang sampai akhir hayat~
may ALLAH bless u.  ^_^

#end of 1 journey lead to another beginning.

lucky me.

im not good...nor a perfect person.

i do mistakes all the time.

but still, i have a lot of silly friends

they stay with me for what i am.

thanks for always be here and there for me.  :)

# I'm definitely a good person with too many defects.

stepping forwards.

Dear girlfriend~

what's happened to the words MOVE ON?
let me remind u what u've told me before.
"once u broke up n comes into a new relationship again...that means u already MOVE ON!"
but then, why u still being a cry baby over ur EX new relationship?
hey gurlsssssssssss...clear up ur mind please~

dun ever b like diz.
it's hard...but u must try harder.

u r stepping forwards my dear..not towards the past.
past is a history. Left u with lessons to guide u to start a new journey.
looked up for the lessons sometimes? yes u should.
but only to remind u bout the bad things happened before.
dun ever pick up any sweet sour memories of u n him.
it's really a silly mistake..!!!

again...let's move on.
letting go that person is a must.
spare ur heart to the one that appreciates u.
not to the one that left u before.

# healing takes time. everybody knows it.

may ALLAH helps u through this phase. :)

allergy FREAK.....!!

im such an allergy FREAK..!!

CHAPTER #1

doc: allergic to any thing miss?
me : definitely many things doc...bla bla bla bla bla bla bla~...................almost to non-stop session..
ishhh....sorry doc..! i'm just trying to explain bout my condition..  o_____0
doc : r u develops multiple allergic reaction?
me : ???..........hmmm....clueless~
for easy understanding bout allergy....please click wiki or here oke..?  :)

first, im allergic to seafood..wait..!! i can eat fish. then..maybe just allergic to shellfish..still unsure because i can bare with oyster..cockle~ errrr...so? oke2....im just allergic to prawns...crabs...lobsters..cuttlefishes...and etc.  =)

how to make it better? my friends also got the same problems with me.
 fortunately, they r not so-called "old fashion" allergy type! still can take seafoods without worry..
n of course not really takes a bunch.!

1st tip:  im aware of it...but then, how can i ask for something like in the 2nd tip?
then, food ingredient..not really mind in this..
4th: how to put it...i cant even smell the food with seafood..shortly will start feel itch. is that because of the protein released or just my mind trick?
5th tip: errrr...is it true? spare me please~

sometimes...friends does not really understand it...sedihhhh~

x nak makan...x boleh makan....n x mampu makan tu beza oke..!

then, to make it worse..those things can trigger asthma attack..!!

how can it related? most of the allergy reaction can lead to difficulty in breathing..

and im officially is the person with asthmatic problem..

CHAPTER #2

"Jewelry enhances the beauty and makes the wearer more charming. Unfortunately, few people have to bear pain of becoming beautiful as they suffer from the allergy."

what with this lines?

ohh..hello world...i'm also allergy to JEWELLARY..!! 

anybody want to propose me? please be prepared with "jongkong emas" instead of huge bling2 "cincin emas"..! i do love GOLD oke?hahaa...even i can only wear it not longer than a day..!

how do peoples become allergy to jewell? got skin allergy? 

im not into that type..really..! should i blame the jewell? 

blaming urself defense mechanism might hurt u..but..that's the fact..!

more info? click here

#mybe should get some med checkup/ blood test later

nak grad..!

at the most crucial time..

still bermalas-malasan..

buat kerja sambil baring...then...lelap..!

ishhh...x boleh malas-malas..

nak grad ke x nak?

passport kahwin..!

dah ada passport...dah boleh kawen..! yeaAyy!!!  ^_^
settle with kursus kahwin..
siapa2 nak kahwin tu...sila pergi kursus dulu oke? saya dahh...haha
tapi nak kahwin ke? eh? 

buku FREE..!
sila buat revision kalau nak kawen yep..  ^_^

time nak pergi tu macam2 rasa ada...rasa rugi pun ada...bukannya nak kahwin terus pun.
fikir just nak melengkapkan to-do list before habis study + melayan kawan2 yg nak kahwin ni..  =D
but once start dengar ceramah dari ustaz2 ni...even ustaz semua guna bahasa kelantan...its worth after all.
bukan hari2 dapat pengisian jiwa dgn hal2 agama...hal kehidupan..
lalai sgt dengan dunia..

ehemm..
semua orang nak kahwin kan?...fitrah..!!
lambat cepat tu rezeki...doa lah ye kawan2..
i'll prays for u too...boleh cepat2 aku dapat makan free...haha

aku? aku takut...!!
macam2 pengalaman depan mata buat aku selektif dgn manusia.
never pass the denial stage~

it's not really bout the rejection sometimes~

no worries...i like u...for real.
but sorry...i just can't love u.

# 2hari x menghadap thesis..oke..skrg kembali stress..  -_-

dekat tapi jauh.

dekat tak semestinya rapat..

jauh tak semestinya hilang..

aku x ukur jarak logik..

aku kira jarak hati..

kau dekat tapi jauh..

berjuta batu jarak secara jasad..

tapi hakikat nya..kau sgt dekat..

kau ada mana aku ada..

sebab kau sentiasa setia...dalam HATI.

don't measure the distance.

measure the love.  =)

aku lesen agung..!

i got no car licence...
isn't it bad? no rite?
my cita-cita is having Mr.Hubby as my driver~  ^_^
weee~ dapat laa husband kaya....fuuuhhh2~

spongebeb pun maju dari aku..dah ada lesen!

i dun 've any intention to have it. juz bcause.
plus...im worst in memorising ol those simpang siur jalan raya..
how come peoples easily memorize de direction juz in 1 turn?
if u lost somewhere...plez do not ask me. #Fact
make matters worst..i'll lead u nowhere.
surely takkan jumpa jalan yg benar...!  ^_^

taking me wif them just 2 have so called penghibur jalanan.
akulah pghibur jalanan...lalalallalala~
whoever think he/she might 've a bored/sleepy trip..juz have me please..
i'll make sure u wont regret it..
eh perasan..!  @_@

if someday i got a licence..
nak buat gedabak camnih..
biar 1 kampung tau..haha

notakaki : lesen motor yg hilang pun x renew lagi.ada hati nak lesen kereta pulak..! -_-

3 days.

i just have 3 days in my life.

.....yesterday which already in the past.

.....today which i need to face all alone.

.....tomorrow which i need to pray for it.

yesterday...
i learned how to appreciate my life.
hardly tried to comfort my heart which currently not in sync with my mind.
i learned to love others even im not been loved.
i learned to concern bout others even nobody cares bout me.
giving without a thought what will u get at the end is the best way.

today...
i need to face my day.
but im sure im not left alone..
ALLAH is always with me.
He knows the best for me...my life...my destiny.

tomorrow...
everyday i ask ALLAH for another tomorrow..
always hoping for a better tomorrow..
please give me times to please my family..
it's all i asked for.
may ALLAH grant my prays~

whatever im face everyday...im thankful enough for being alive till now.
a new day is just for a new good deed..
i cant guess when my days will last.
i cant ask ALLAH to end my day.
it's all His will.

marah.

aku diam sebab aku marah.
jangan biar aku bercakap.
jangan biar segala bahasa terkeluar secara kesat.

aku x kisah org aku x suka...x suka aku.
aku x kisah org aku separuh suka...x suka aku.
aku hanya kisah org aku suka...x suka aku.
hanya org2 ni aku akan jaga...!

cinta separuh hati.

Walau sekuat mana sayang kita kepada seseorang,
simpanlah sedikit keraguan di dalam hati,
supaya apabila suatu ketika nanti kita diuji,
kita tidak akan terus jatuh rebah,
tetapi masih ada kekuatan untuk bangun semula~♥

perlu nya macam ni.

ingat mati.

hari tu..attend post-mortem...lagi.
and perasaan pelik2 tu still ada...lagi.

bau bilik autopsy sgt kuat..melekat.
aku nangis baju x hilang bau..
nangis takutkan apa? hantu?
aku salah situasi..

tengok org mati harus buat aku sedar diri.
tua muda, kaya atau papa atau siapa pun kita,
ajal x ada limit usia.
x pernah tunggu taubat kita..

jangan bagi hati mati untuk terus ingat mati.

the road that taken~

sahabat...kawan...teman...rakan..

satu definisi yang dipelbagai erti..

rencah dalam meniti usia..

kita dipertemukan dengan berbagai ragam manusia..

berdua bersahabat..bukan penentu hati kalian satu..

berjuta teman...bukan pasti ragamnya setiap satu..

kita sama..

walau bergema pelusuk dunia kau laung kita berbeza..

aku yakin...kita tetap sama~

kita sama usia tika mula bertatih mengenal dunia.

sama bermengah tika mula menapak mengharungi liku jalan..

sama resah meraba dalam kegelapan masa hadapan..

sama mengharap ada huluran tangan memimpin kita hingga ke pengakhiran.

aku juga yakin..mimpi kita juga sama..

ingin mencari ruang kehidupan yg senantiasa dilimpah cahaya.

mahu lalui jalan yg jelas penamatnya secara zahir di depan mata.

punya bahagia tanpa duka sekelumit rasa.

tapi aku pasti..realiti arif dalam membunuh fantasi..

kaku kaki saat hati berbelah bahagi..

apa harus terus melangkah dalam seribu ketidakpastian?

tanpa sedar kita lelah menerus langkah..

kaki yang dulunya gagah kini mula goyah..

terduduk lesu mengenang hari-hari semalam yang hilang..

menghitung hari-hari mendatang yang bagai tak punya siang..

kita punya hari yg sentiasa malam...kelam~

kau sakit..aku turut merasa perit.

percayalah...kerana kita sama~

bukan kejatuhan kau yg aku dahaga..

bukan kemenangan kau yg berkejar ku ingin sanjung dari mula..

aku mahu KITA..!!

kita yg sama-sama bangkit mengejar cita..

kita yg sama-sama meninggalkan duka semalam sejauh pandangan mata..

bangkitlah sahabat...kawan...teman...rakan..
teguhkan hati....tetapkan iman...teruskan jalan..

kita hanya mampu merancang kehidupan yg bakal mendatang~

4.o..??

trending for this few days? ----------> #result #campusOnline

macam2 lah post kat Fesbuk..Twitter semua cerita pasal result..

ada yg happy terlebih...frust sikit..frust banyak..ada yg bersyukur seadanya..

yg penting..masing2 ada azam nak improve for next time..

all the best n gud luck friends...!!! jgn down or happy lama2 sangat..
still long way to go kan kalau panjang umur..insyALLAH~  =)

for this semester...my dearest cosmatessssss macam beratur je yg dpt 4flat..!!
wooaaahh...bangga aku dpt kawan mcm korang..congrats..! *clap3*

korang penah bangga x dapat kawan yg otak kurang geliga mcm aku ni?hihi

aku x jumpa lagi jalan yg 'flat' macam korang semua..

x cukup gigih lagi kot nak tarah segala bukit bukau gunung ganang utk dapat yg 'flat' tu...

bnyk sgt bonggol2 kat tengah jalan..kadang2 busut kecik pun x mampu nak langkah~ 

tiap kali dapat result..terus bercita2 nak improve for next time..
tapi bila start je new sem...........tutt tutt tuuttttttttttt~
semua dah back to normal...cis cis....berpoya2 aje kerja nya...
date dengan orang lagi lama kot dari date dgn buku~  -____-
haipp2...kena bagi tazkirah sikit ni..

Imam Waqie' pernah berpesan dekat Imam Al-Syafie bila beliau mengadu susah nak menghafal :

“Ilmu itu cahaya dan cahaya Allah tidak ditunjukkan untuk orang yang membuat maksiat”.

haaa...nampak tak? kita kena hindar diri dari buat maksiat n dosa even dosa2 kecik pun...yg kecik2 ni bila melarat jadi dosa besar pulak..bahaya oiyy..! 
tapi kadang2 kita x sedar yg kita ada buat semua tu...or buat2 x sedar diri padahal tahu sangat apa salah apa yg betul...silap sendiri lah kan~
so...kena lah selalu bertaubat...jangan tunggu2...hidup mati bukan kita yg tentukan...
(pesanan penaja kat diri sendiri~)

kena selalu bermuhasabah diri baru nampak
apa yg ALLAH rencanakan utk kita.  :)

kisah pensel~

situasi --> sedang gigih interprete data experiment (dlm bilik supervisor)

tiba-tiba~

dR.t >> Z...mata pensel buat daripada apa?

z >> Carbon lah dR...dah warna hitam kan.. (jawab dgn penuh yakin..!!)

dR.t >> heyy...siapa yg ajar kamu nih?? (geleng-geleng kepala)

z >> cekgu tadika yg ajar masa kecik2 dulu...betul lah kan dR?

dR.t >> mata pensel dari Lead (Plumbum) lahh..mengarut je awak ni..
balik hostel g blajar basic chemistry semula..!!

z >>   

       seriusss??? xpernah tahu~

*since buat FYP...baru sedar diri x pernah pandai chemistry..ohh..my..study first year semula lahh cam nihh... -___- 

I do hates U....fullstop.

sumpah aku benci hang dok melawat aku hari2..
dah aku kata x suka tu..x suka la..
awat hang degil sangat ni? ....
tudiaaa...hambik kau..keluar bahasa merapu mana entah.~  =D

say NO to lipas..!!

i hates u lipasssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!
kegelian melampau bila tengok makhluk ni merayap merata-rata..
dah la gemuk2...misai panjang2 pulak tuh..sihat bebenor engkau ye..
entah bila aku develops rasa geli2 nihh...zaman kecik2 dulu elok pulak dok main kejar2 dengan lipas, cengkerik segala...lepas tu p buat umpan ikan..hee~
cerita "oggy & cockroaches" tu pun peveret...x boleh skip tengok...even kartun tu x bercakap..eh..aku paham je kot..  ^_^
pelik kan cemana budak2 kecik boleh paham tengok kartun even english version..tapi sampai ke besar x pandai tahap master pun BI...hahahha

hmmm...aku rasa ni semua salah aku belajar biology..
bila study...baru tau lipas ada cecair and rongga2 je dlm badan dia..then...terus rasa geli dok bayang bila lipas tu penyek..abes keluar segala cecair2 badan dia...eeeee...yekk...yekkk...  -____-
ish....mainan psikologi betul nihh...kena service otak ni semula kot jgn bagi geli kat lipas..

time zaman matrik dulu..semua roomate pakat lari cepat2 bila nampak lipas..dok atas katil senyap2 sambil mata penuh waspada tengok lipas tu merayap p mana...then, sorang roomate ni tetiba jadi superhero malam tu..pakai selimut as shielder n penyapu as weapon nak penyekkan lipas tu sampai mati..kami atas katil tolng bagi arahan jek...haha....kinda funny bila ingat semula..
sampai sekarang pun..aku hanya jadi pemerhati setia..nak bunuh lipas memang bukan kerja aku laa...ishh...nak ketuk pun geli...n aku bersyukur ada roomate2 sejati sebagai pembanteras lipas..hihi...thanks dear roomies~  ;)
tapi kalau dah xde org nak tolong selamatkan keadaan...terpaksa laa capai ridsect n spray kat enchik lipas tu sampai dia K.O..puas hati...tapi aku rasa..dengan aku aku sekali lemas kot dlm bilik tu~  @____+

*selalu bayang one day nanti lipas pakat ramai2 nak balas dendam kat aku sebab bunuh kaum kerabat diorang... ARISE OF COCKROACHES...!! haizz...scary~

untung ada matric card!

untung...untung...sangat untung..!  ^_^
macam first time rasa untung ada matric card..haha
since sekolah..x rajin langsung nak gantung kat leher..
macam serabai je nak pakai all the time.. pelajar berdisiplin memang macam ni kan?  =)

baru2 ni....just because of having the matric card..dpt diskaun time buat IC yg lesap hari tu...yeEAAyyy!!  ^__^
nasib baik la matric card memang selalu ada dlm wallet..bawak je merata..guna nya x pernah pun or senang cakap card tu memang x berguna dah...
kat U, nak scan b4 masuk arsama o library pun x boleh..dah expired kot~  nak ganti baru memang x lahh...bazir duit 'papa JPA' bagi nanti.. =D

hmmm...for 2nd time hilang iC..kena charged RM200 tau~fuuhhh...ketar tangan nak hulur duit..
then,,bila kakak kaunter tu kata if student boleh dapat diskaun..laju je geledah wallet cari matric card.!
I'm STUDENT....this card as a proof oke!!..ngeh3  ^___~
seronok bak hang...teruih p isi borang "pengurangan kadar denda"...dok sengih2 isi borang..mesti org kata aku gila..hahaha...nak buat mcm mana...sinar kebahagiaan memang x boleh disorokkan~

lesson 4 that day ---> bangga lah menjadi seorang pelajar...!!!
eh..tetiba je kan...the point is...jadikan lah matric card tu teman setia..banyak lagi tempat boleh dapat diskaun...students mana ada duit banyak kan? n plus guna 'kad diskaun siswa 1Malaysia' yg Pak Najib bagi tu..xpayah nak segan silu lah tunjuk kad tu p mintak diskaun..hee~  =)

let's choose to be HAPPY..!

everybody have lots of problem..

but it's up to u how to deal with it..

please...choose to be HAPPY...!!
there is no other option better than this.

your life is YOUR CHOICE..

depressed with the problems would take u nowhere..

it's just gonna bring u down.

be positive..ride along the ups and downs.

u will find that...life is interesting..

if u are patient enough..

at the end, u will find the solution for every problems u  have..

dead but alive..! ZOMBIE?

i choose to be happy..

no matter how its going to be..

I'm trying to defeat all the problems..

may ALLAH help me finds my way~

cinta hati saya~

masa utk berpoya-poya dah habis..

so..mari prepare mental dan fizikal secukup rasa demi kehidupan yg bakal mendatang..

langkah pertama adalah berkorban jiwa raga sebab kena balik awal ke campus demi segulung ijazah..chewahh..awal je nampak semangat..jejak je kaki kat campus..semua terbang melayang..  =D

hari first jumpa supervisor..dah macam2 peluru beliau fire kami..

terkedu terkelu kat situ kejap..senyum aje laa yg mampu..

nasib baik muka sweet2 comey gitu bila senyum...oOpppsss~ ^_^

bila tak jawab..nampak mcm x ambil peduli langsung..

tapi kalau jawab merapu nanti..kantoi la kekurangan kelebihan lecerdikan kami ni...kan?

time tu lah baru teringat mak pesan time kecik2 dulu...
"kalau org tua2 cakap..jangan sebok2 nak menjawab".. (boleh apply?hehe)

oohh..oke...kita diam..!  =)

Dr.T : kamu datang memang x prepare apa2 ke?

kami (dlm hati je oke?) : eh eh..dR. kata bila jumpa ari ni baru nak cari idea kan..so?hihihihihi

memang patut la pelajar2 cemerlang macam kami ni start awal FYP..

kalau x..confirm haru biru hidup start semester nanti..

nampak x hikmah disebalik kejadian?haha

kali ni pun..baru jumpa sekali..bertimbun terus kerja beliau suruh settlekan within weekend ni..

serabut2..nak start dari mana eh? haila...x organize betul hidup..

topic FYP kami related to heavy metals..just a common topic..

tapi yg menariknya sebab ambil sample dari waste water kilang batik kat area kelantan ni..

waaa...tengok org canting batik real2 depan mata..teruja aih...jakun? memang jakun sebab selalu tengok dlm tv je..haha
cantik sgt batik sutera rupanya..buat pun susah..patut pun org jual mahal2...dye yg tauke batik ni guna macam2 pulak tu..kalau dye extracted dari natural source..harga dye tu saja dah beribu~ 

errr...saya ade duit berkoyan2 t saya beli kat pakcik eh?  ;) #mimpi~sila jadi reality

hmmm..sebelum start bercinta dgn lab instrument...

kena bercinta dgn journalssss yg bertimbun tu dulu..

x suka macam mana pun..still kena paksa rela mengadap 'mereka' hari2..

hai my cinta hati..please b kind to me oke?

akan ku cantum2 anda jadi satu...baru boleh GRAD..!!ngee~  ;)

new BABY...!!

welcome to de WORLD dear...
Nur Raisya Shakira Bt. Mohd Riduan
semoga menjadi anak yg solehah dunia akhirat..  :)

umur x sampai sehari..

                              

bila lah nak jumpa kamu ni..
x sabar nk tengok muka jelez abg kamu bila mama dia ada baby baru..  =D

p/s: abg long..jgn kedekut pix baby la..
uplod bnyk2 plezz..  (^_^)